I love the idea of sharing my thoughts with anyone that cares to read. I have enjoyed reading the blogs and praying for many of the bloggers I have come across. It seems like a fabulous idea, though I must admit that I have been concerned about the privacy issue, the judgments that may be made about me, and the unfamiliar world of creating a blog. As you can see though, I am throwing caution to the wind with my wild ideas... so here goes nothing!
My plans for this blog are to simply share my thoughts, vent, relieve stress, and encourage anyone who decides they would like to read.
Tonight, my thoughts include:
- Trying to lose baby weight
- Not wanting to return to work from maternity leave
- Feeling successful as a mommy
- Marriage...not just a feeling
My definition of BABY WEIGHT(n.)-The excess donuts and pizza that my baby obviously did not need, that I am now left to deal with.
Babies can wreck a body! I waited almost a year after having my son before I tried to get rid of the weight that I gained with him. I gained about 35 pounds. Postpartum depression played a role in the delay...or maybe it was the other way around. I also gained 35 pounds with my daughter. I started working out again when she was 6 weeks old. There has been NO sign of depression this time around. I am currently addicted to working out. Not really. It just makes me feel so darn good. I am making progress. I am currently down 30 pounds. I would like to lose more than I gained so my children will never remember their mother was somewhat unhealthy. I also think that I am done having babies, so I hope to never have to deal with BABY WEIGHT again.
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Return From Maternity Leave
In just about three weeks, I will be returning to work after being home with my children since December 17th. I have learned a few things that I am surprised to discover.
- I have learned that I love my children more than life itself.
- I have learned that being a full time stay at home mom is SOOOO hard.
- I have learned that since I do have to work (for insurance purposes) I have picked the best job there is...summers off!
- I have learned that my ministry is showing Jesus to my students.
- I have learned that God is not absent in my classroom, though it is a public school.
- I have learned that life's situations are what you make of them.
My son loves his school. He goes 3 days a week. He spends the other days with his 2 grandmothers. As for my daughter, I will miss my darling baby girl, will cry like a baby when I leave her for the first time, will be wrecked with guilt that I am not there for her, and will count down the minutes until I can hold her. What can I do though??? I will make it through, so will she. I have explained to her that I need her to share me with my other 22 children who are missing parents, Christ, comfort, a feeling of safety, approval, and unconditional love. I think she understands:)
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Top 10 Things That Make Me Feel Successful As A Mommy
(In No Particular Order)
- Smiles
- Laughter
- Hugs and Kisses
- Making any kind of shopping trip with 2 children and not losing my cool
- Seeing my son share the train at Davis Kidd
- Being able to provide for my children
- Watching my son try to comfort his sister
- Listening to my son's enormous vocabulary
- Knowing I gave my children life
- Having my son remind us to say our prayers
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MARRIAGE
As I was reminded by a fellow blogger, marriage should not be based on a feeling. If you go into marriage thinking that you are always supposed to feel a certain way...it will surely fail. I needed to be reminded of a few points. I thank MckMama for her reminder. I have struggled with this lately. I appreciate my husband for who he is. I need to remind myself that we stood before God and made a promise. We did not promise to stay together as long as things were all lovey-dovey and roses. We promised for better or worse. It is a lot easier to stay happy together if you look for all the good in your relationship. It is not always going to be perfect, but the great times are soooo worth the struggles. I love my husband and I know that if God is for us, who can be against us????
I Love This Man (and little man:)! 
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